what swimming pool stated for ??

Today ham ham mentioned a guy's name in school , let me think of many previous things , and those stupid and silly things i did towards him . i likes him for more than 1 years , but now he is so far from me , sure that he is very enjoys for his university life in sarawak now , aix ... no more sms , no more camp to go together , i even dare to view his friendster profile .

Not a handsome guy he is , not rich , and even no car lisence , definitely not a ideal guy im looking for , but why i still crazy for him ?? the great leadership he has , a very hardworking guy and also very independant . 'swimming pool' is the nickname i gave him , that is a story behind this , sure that you don't know that you helped me , took the water from swimming pool for me , but what for to mention that again ... nothing else will happen between you and me in future right ??! i won't see you again right ??!! i don't hope to see you again , i don't hope to go to that teacher's house again also , she will let me think of you . i think of you everytime i passby the 'jejantas' , the back of you , walking away , that is the last time i saw you , don't want to talk much with you during that time , purposely , tried to act cool , haha ...

My life can consider as fulfill now , i have to enjoy my life , but not wasting my time to think of you , i don't know how to swim ,im not a real duck , can't jump into swimming pool ...