sad thusday

Today went midvalley again , with mum and sis , I started regret since I reached midvalley’s ktm station , I don’t like to be with them sometimes , don’t know why , and I knew I can’t get any new clothes from that place , what a fat girl I am , I don’t want to buy beautiful clothes in XL , #.#......i feel like nothing in those shops is suitable for me , I love them , but they are not belong to me . I dare to wear high heel shoes , that will looks like I am bullying them when I wearing them , my ugly and gross shanks , nothing is suitable to be wear .

we had lunch in nando's today , which was suggested by me , i don't think nando's food is costly , honestly , but it's costly for mum , i knew , from the expression on her face when she reading the menu .no more mood to eat after i saw that , so i just ordered wedges , but the waitress took wrong order and gave me mushroom and chicken soup with garlic bread . ya , i knew my dad does not earn lots of money , but why she always treat herself like this , eat a little , use a little , and give us all the other , i felt guilty and sad rather than happy . mum , if you really love us , you should treat yourself better , you feel happy then we will only feel happy ...