duckie's life in human world ~~

2009-11-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

今天看见小白的身影在我前面远去，我想起了游泳池，我很没用，连一丁点叫住他的勇气都没有，我不是酱的人，现在也不是想太多的时候。。我气的是自己的不争气，我连尝试都没有，最后的三个小时，就这样就过了。。我听见他朋友叫他的名，听间他说话，听见他的笑声，就算有多清晰又怎样，我终究都没有勇气。。。自信是个很大的障碍，我不美，胖胖矮矮，又满脸豆豆，而且声音那么低沉，会给我的人脑袋应该有很大问题。。。算吧，他那么高那么瘦我那么胖那么矮，他说华文我说广东话，他不爱穿名牌可是我看见名牌眼睛会发光。。。。我很快会忘了这号人物的，可是现在就是不甘心，就是后悔，就是很气自己。。。

2009-09-14T19:13:00.002+08:00

原来考完trial了会有一股空虚感，其实每次考完试了我都有同感，我想high一下有谁可以陪我？！！

我讨厌男生chat时不回复我，没趣的家伙，影响本小姐的心情，我在给面子你耶！

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/angelduck777/24925780 刚上去看了这女生的部落格，在法国的一个女生，正进行着向一百个男生索吻的计划，年轻就该疯狂，我欣赏她的生活方式，可是更欣赏和她接吻的帅哥们。。。。。

call me 'slim duck' !! ~

2009-04-16T18:40:00.004+08:00

Having diet recently , what a miraculous book that is , can made a fat girl lost 2 kg in 4 days , huhuhu~~~ mom's advice on the first day ,' you are not too fat , no need to get yourself suffer , just stay away from the snacks .. ' , i know i know , but i am a 19th girl in this century , slimming is a trend , and so i forced to follow the step , to get myself a boyfriend , pretty and self-confidence which is the main reason .

Sis coming back from penang this weekends , going to spend her long break at home , duckie used to have her own bed room , what a bad sister duckie is ... but then duckie can meet the lovely camera again , can go shopping more frequently and sure mom will pay for everything , mom will prepare more and more food at home , and sis's laptop is so capable which is with microsoft word .. yeah , all these are enough to get a cheerful duckie to welcome her sis back .

Duckie has no more else to write , i am not good in writting , hmmm , wishing myself to do well in the coming muet exam , actually just taking that as a experience , so not hoping too much ... 3 days more to go for my diet plan , and 3 kg more i hope to loss ~~ >.^

happy chinese new year 2009

2009-01-27T17:32:00.003+08:00

新年了，2009 年了，1字头的最后一年啦，感触感触。。。唉，原来我长大了，照镜子都看不出。

今年只收到唯一一张贺年卡，感触感触，人老了，贺年卡也少了，我是老人家，还是比较喜欢贺年卡的。

没什么好写的了。新年快乐哦，各位!!

p/s:送贺年卡的那位，谢了，还有那个key chain ...

2009-01-27T16:21:00.005+08:00

很久没update blog 了，ham2 常常都会说我，很少写部落格，一来懒惰，二来电脑常坏，三来文笔不好，每次写的文章都短短而且没什么内容，我不爱写华语，可是英文又不好。

很想说说游泳池，不是游泳的那一种，而是那个人。原来假期前的星期三，他去过学校，我们错过了见面的机会，或许他也不想见我吧。如果你还有一点点的在乎我，为什么连一封祝贺简讯都没回。那天在美之家喝茶，如果那天你有到伟深喝茶，那我们有可能会碰到面吗?你没去，我又少了一个机会见到你了。那天想想，原来我们一起去过关丹、terengganu还有太平湖，你应该不记得了吧~~

我害怕再见到你，因为我知道自己会更加想你，可是我真的很想见到你，因为我对你还有感觉。你的条件都不是我要的那些，为什么我还那么想念你啊，笨蛋肥鸭就是学不会跳出游泳池。

exhausted week

2008-12-21T00:15:00.003+08:00

parents going to send sis back to penang later , about 4 something , then fat duckie will stay at home alone with fat nono , pity them ......

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the past week seems like a nightmare for me ....

monday
-- went timesquare with pitwah , meikuan , sien and lay yin

tuesday
-- had group discussing for bio project at mcd
-- tuition from 2.30 to 6 pm

wednesday
-- tuition from 10.50 to 5.50(last time to see 'mei choo' in this year)
-- cheated by people in central market
-- quarrel with ning at night

thusday
-- hp broke down
-- had a meeting for 2 and half hours

friday
-- went kasturi tuition again from 10.50 to 2
-- had lunch with friends in central market(wondered get cheated by
people)
-- then sent hp to bintang to repair
-- later went cyber cafe alone
-- help suvin to look for people to go watch dance competition

saturday
-- got back hp but lost all the contact numbers
(forgot to save all the contacts in sim card , what the f**k ~~@.@)and
messages inside it (his messages and my 'lovely
drafts...damnit~)...(lost RM60 )
-- met peiying , pitwah , mayrui , men fei , shadzaad them in kfc
-- continue look for people to go watch dance competition , but nobody
want ( blamed by uncle lim...)

how if if those liar really take our ic to borrow money from along ?? report police ??? mum sure will kill me if that really happen , god bless me , i do not want to see my face by the roadside , i do not wish to be so famous ... red always bring goodluck , isn't it ? but why my red fingernails do not have any effect one ?? pity duckie , must be more awareness after this ..

p/s : energetic duckie became exhausted duckie , no more mood to celebrate christmas
... no people date duckie on that day also ......>.<'

quarrel among leos

2008-12-19T17:18:00.003+08:00

quarreled with my lovely omega leo's vice prsident at wednesday night . ya , i knew it is our false cause forgot to inform you that there is a meeting with lions , but i am really angry about what you write in the last message , 'i got class from 8 to 4 tmr , not free like you can go meeting whenever... ', hey , what you mean by saying that , you thought i am fei ren ? just sit at home everyday and wait for leo meeting ?? you are not the only one who busy , assignment , assignment , very handal mey ~~ i know you can be a good leader if you try to do so , so just prove that to me !! said us betray you purposely , ya , we really do not like you , i think you can feel that too , then why you never change your attitude ?? we never plan to betray you , just sometimes cannot discuss the things with you , cause you are so far away , i appologise for that to you , but please do not lose temper on me , i will not be patient and tolerate with you anymore if you act so again . please do not just pay attention on eveything about YE , i know you went denmark before , but it has past , help our pity president to do something okie ??

p/s : since that day on , i will never treat you as my good friend anymore ......

stupid nokia 7390

2008-12-18T20:37:00.002+08:00

笨蛋电话，刚刚手多关了机，一关就不得了了，到现在一个小时还是多了，都没有反应，气死我了！！！！！最近有什么好电话，等不及过年了，我要换手机!!!!!!

sad thusday

2008-12-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

Today went midvalley again , with mum and sis , I started regret since I reached midvalley’s ktm station , I don’t like to be with them sometimes , don’t know why , and I knew I can’t get any new clothes from that place , what a fat girl I am , I don’t want to buy beautiful clothes in XL , #.#......i feel like nothing in those shops is suitable for me , I love them , but they are not belong to me . I dare to wear high heel shoes , that will looks like I am bullying them when I wearing them , my ugly and gross shanks , nothing is suitable to be wear .

we had lunch in nando's today , which was suggested by me , i don't think nando's food is costly , honestly , but it's costly for mum , i knew , from the expression on her face when she reading the menu .no more mood to eat after i saw that , so i just ordered wedges , but the waitress took wrong order and gave me mushroom and chicken soup with garlic bread . ya , i knew my dad does not earn lots of money , but why she always treat herself like this , eat a little , use a little , and give us all the other , i felt guilty and sad rather than happy . mum , if you really love us , you should treat yourself better , you feel happy then we will only feel happy ...

tiring wednesday

2008-12-04T12:12:00.007+08:00

planning to write in chinese , but ... but...... i do not know how to use NJstar~~~!!

went midvalley to watch 3D Bolt with ham ham yesterday , the 2nd 3D movie that i watch , very expensive , RM 17 , moreover is on wednesday ... after that we went sasa again (just went there with her last sat..) , planed to go there to buy that 'sexy girls' hairspray , but ... but ... the salegirl said there have no more stok already , heart broken , mum allowed me to buy , but how can they treat me like this , sob......then , ham duck felt hungry already , ham ham said want to go madam kwan's there , so we went there , the restaurant was almost full , we entered to it and sat down , ham ham scared the food will serve in late , so ...... we runaway from it.......very paise le...=.=''

finally we entered the japanese restaurant which situated next to it , called 'pasta kanzai' if i am not mistaken , i ordered a pasta with tempura in sesame sauce and special ice green tea , cost RM23 and rm3 respectively , but the waitress heard wrongly when she took my order , the pasta was in set when it served which with salad and miso soup , so , the price increased to rm26 . ham ham ordered a pasta with chicken and half-boiled egg , and apple juices ... we finished our lunch at 2.40 , then we rushed to kasturi , we reached kasturi by lated for 30 minutes , keke~~>.<

chemistry tuition finished at 4.20 , then went to chat with balai about the rats , rushed to ktm station after that , because i dated with mayrui them about 5 something ,the train came by 4.45 , reached rawang 40 minutes later , then saw my beloved deer waiting for me at station , we naik mayrui's car to go to pn.tai's house while ham ham went back to her house . we reached pn.tai's house at 6 something , met my math tuition teacher , sir lee there , we all chat until 7 and started to have steamboat for dinner , i do not like teacher's steamboat , honestly , tasteless and very little choices for food , but is time better than last year , hehe , i prefer hamham's restaurant one . leeyin and tuck xian came late , they chat about swimming pool during the steamboat , i acted like heard nothing , i knew he is not coming back in this holiday , that's why i will go to teacher's house , became smart duck this time . i reached home by 10.50pm , tired , sweaty and sleepy ...... tiring wednesday , rushed here rushed there for whole day .

christmas decoration ham duck took pic with 3D spectaclecs in cinema !!

2008-12-02T12:49:00.002+08:00

finally can online at home , keke . sis back from penang 'again' , she seems like studying in kl , back home always , honestly , bit jealous when i see how my parents treat her , i am a selfish person , i hate my life to be disturbed , especially when my 'profits' are getting harm .

chinese new year coming soon on end of january , the best time for buying new clothes , but it seeems to let me headache now , how a fat girl going to buy pretty clothes , what my mom and sis said really hurted my heart , that's not the way to encourage me what , but it is a kind of ridicule , is it fat girl should not paint on her finger nails ? and buy those girlish things ??

don't ignore fat girl , okkkkk ??!!!!

2008-10-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

Still without chinese star , aix ...forced to write in english again , so just make this as a practice for my muet writting .......

Year-end exam is coming , soon , but i havnt do revision yet , now only i can understand why the ex-senior told me that form 6 is a black hole , ya , the syllabus is tough enough , i start to worry that i cant even pass all the subjects , never face this problem before , first time 'am am' pass , first time do not want to do revision before exam , trying to make myself fall down heavily , people always say that if you can study form6 means that you are a great person , that's absolutely wrong , people who can graduated is only brilliant . i scared that i had chosen a wrong subject , will it better and easier if i choose account or sastera ??

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Celebrated yiwen's birthday ahead at lee sien's restaurant last friday(3/10) , my new classmate and my balai , i bought a bundle of sunflowers for her , first time i buy flower for friend , from k.l , petaling street , i 'hugging' it and go back by sj bus , all those passengers staring at me and the pretty sunflower , and the conductor keep talking with me , 'ah moi , valentine's day sudah over ~ ' ' ah moi , bagi saya satu laa ...' , haha , very annoying , but very funny , i enjoy that moment so much , cause people thought that the sunflowers were given by somebody , kaka ... i never get flower from others , i'm a very common girl , hope to receive flower one day later , and hope the day is coming soon , hee......

Still remember what yiwen wished on that day , out of the 3 wishes , two is also my wishes ,

First : get slimmer one day ,

Second : get a boyfriend soon .

18 , not a small girl anymore , won't simply 'pick' a boyfriend by the roadside , but hoping someone to 'pick' me up , hope to receive flowers on valentine's day , hope to get a boyfriend to teach me on studies , hope to have someone to fetch me here and there , aix ... pity fat duck duck , is it we must get in slim to have a boyfriend ??

( To those XY : fat girlfriend no good mey , then only u won't feel cold when u hug her ma , and u no need to protect her 24 hours , plus no need to worry that other XYs will snatch ur gf ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>.<"')

2nd of october 08

2008-10-02T09:16:00.003+08:00

Planning to type in chinese in beginning , but bro did something to the pc that day , made all the programmes 'disappeared' , included microsoft word ... pity me , don't know where to get them back , don't know how to type notes after this ... aix ...

Went puchong to attend rcc meeting with suvin , moon , yanning and sir on the last saturday , hate to attend that , cause our alpha and omega were the worst , we din't voice out our problems and ideas at all in the meeting , the meeting held for 3 hours something ,we just sat at there like 4 'mu tou' , and sir slept during the meeting , so embarrassed...all those from other schools and colleges were speak in english , can't compare with them at all , theirs activities are more creative , more grand and more attractive , we are all from leos clubs , but different levels , that is still a large distance for us to chase them ...the world is not small as rawang , but we stayed in rawang for too long period , made our thinking became old fashioned , maybe that's why our club din't grow better but worse......

2008-09-23T18:20:00.004+08:00

the 2nd t-shirt ( back )

the 1st t-shirt ..
the 2nd t-shirt (front)

19 september was ah zai birthday , didn't celebrate for him , just had a lunch together on sunday , with pitwah , y.moon , chui jie , sook han and few of his friends(forgot their names already,keke ) . I gave ah zai two black t-shirts as his birthday gifts , 1 with collar , another 1 without collar . this is the first time i draw on t-shirt , very challenging , plus my art is very bad , i used few nights to finish these . the colour i drew on the t-shirts can't see welly , might because of the t-shirts was in black colour , or maybe other reasons , the yellow ducks became yellow-greenish ducks , blue and pink colour became black , only white colour can see clearly . but finaaly , i completed the t-shirts , haha , although not pretty ... >.<''

what swimming pool stated for ??

2008-09-22T21:35:00.005+08:00

Today ham ham mentioned a guy's name in school , let me think of many previous things , and those stupid and silly things i did towards him . i likes him for more than 1 years , but now he is so far from me , sure that he is very enjoys for his university life in sarawak now , aix ... no more sms , no more camp to go together , i even dare to view his friendster profile .

Not a handsome guy he is , not rich , and even no car lisence , definitely not a ideal guy im looking for , but why i still crazy for him ?? the great leadership he has , a very hardworking guy and also very independant . 'swimming pool' is the nickname i gave him , that is a story behind this , sure that you don't know that you helped me , took the water from swimming pool for me , but what for to mention that again ... nothing else will happen between you and me in future right ??! i won't see you again right ??!! i don't hope to see you again , i don't hope to go to that teacher's house again also , she will let me think of you . i think of you everytime i passby the 'jejantas' , the back of you , walking away , that is the last time i saw you , don't want to talk much with you during that time , purposely , tried to act cool , haha ...

My life can consider as fulfill now , i have to enjoy my life , but not wasting my time to think of you , i don't know how to swim ,im not a real duck , can't jump into swimming pool ...

2008-09-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

went sin ma buy clothes with lsien and her sister yesterday morning ...we went there directly after muet tuition , 10 a.m. something ...but the shop still not yet open , have to wait until 11a.m , then we go downstairs for window shopping , but our "journey" finished in 20 minutes , still havnt reach 11 , then we started lepak again ...... finally the shop open , we entered it ... the two sisters started to choose their ideal t-shirts , one piece , two pieces , three pieces ,......first time i see two young girls buy t-shirt in this way , like strong wind blew over ... so scary , without thinking about the price and others ~~ made the shop owner very glad , keep saying " leng lui , leng lui " and gave us his name card before we back , haha , finally , the little sister bought nearly one hundred riggit , and the elder sister bought 5 pieces ...and me ? bought only 1 t-shirt , cost rm 10 , so embarrassed when i paid , small plastic bag with just only 1 t-shirt .. >.<''

ham ham's book ??!

2008-09-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

'ham ham' lend me a book that day , by forcing , haha , long long time dint read chinese book , lots of chinese words , made me stim stim nw ... she said my post in blog is full of sorrow , hahah , don't worry laa , my life is still colourful , i not yet become rich , not yet have boyfriend , still have many things i havnt experience yet ... but don't know when i became a pessimist , think negatively , lazy to speak sometimes ... lack of confidence ? ya i think , trying to look for them back , but firstly i have to be slimmer , secondly train my english to be better , and so on...thx to my '9th lai' for lending me the book , i don't know whether it can known as a motivation book or not , but im trying my best to understand and finish reading it . ^^

to someone who is selfish~ >.<~

2008-09-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

i don't mind to do extra work for club which excluded from my own post , but for those who having higher post than me , and cant do their own jobs properly and just know how to do work by using mouth , think well before what you say and promise , a club won't improve by just having meeting , ya , meeting is important , but pointless meeting is useless ~~!!!